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teman..bantu gue yah supaya gue bisa,gue sanggup buat nyimpen smua apa yang gue rasain sekarang tntg seseorang yg ga pernah tau apa yg gue rasain sekarang. walawpun begitu, dia tau gue ada rasa terhadapnya.ada cinta yang slalu bilang pada jiwa ini, "get u're spirit up TASYA!" dia slalu bilang itu pada hati gue yg smangkin beku akannya. dia bilang, " although u are alone but I'm still with u now. and no leave u aNYMore" terus,gue diem sejenak. lama'',hati gue sakit..dan sakit itu yg slalu ngingetin gue sama hal''indah tentang apa yg menjadi obsesi gue selama ini. pikiran gue sering dibuat sedih dan terkadang cape sm apa obsesi gue dan berujung sakit. tapi, itulah resiko gue yg harus gue terima. gue cmn bisa terima,nangis then I can't do anything for him. gue j=cmn bs berharap..berharap dan selalu berharap smua akan baik''aja seperti kmrn''.temen''.. gue disini buat kalian, begitu juga sebaliknya. gue disini butuh lo smua.butuh smgt''lo smua dan smua yg udh temen''lakuin ke gue itu berarti bgt buat hati dan jiwa gue yg udh hampir membeku. dia yg slalu gue syg..slalu gue pikirin kemana aja gue prgi. cmn dia yg skg ada di stiap apa yg gue lakuin. gue tau, gue bisa!

survive with brokenly

although I Know I hate to say this, I will to holding out. and try to forget all I have and my feelings.
I don't know, what happend with him. but, he look different than yesterday. I don't know why, he didn't gave me a reasons for that. maybe I made mistake with him, I don't know.
But I receive what I'm getting now. maybe, he not my true love for me. huh.. I hate to say this.
what happend with him ? godness.. give me power for faced this prob. in order that I can fixed smile :) I believe,that many still people caring me. that can survive with brokenly. tht's not prob.. o,yah. GOOD MORNING WORLD !! ;) I WILL DO THE BEST FOR ALL MY LIFE. SURVIVE..SURVIE..AND SMILE.

waiting for nothing

nobody can't feel what I'm feeling now.I just can wait..and waiting for nothing .

friendship and love

I believe, friendship is more strong than love.. I don't know why, I just feel my heart has closed to another boy's.  like not be pretanding anymore. I can be my self again.  but the problem, I like don't want have relationship anymore.what the real means of love? bulshit. there's nothing special with that words. just sadness, unfaithfull, and broken. that's means real of love. that's it what I knew. and nothing special anymore. aproximately, I wanna cry if  I told about this topic but I also can't do anything.I want to know what the real answears! T_T 

I'm so missing him tonight

humphhh...tonight, I'm so missing him. and I want to sent him text but I'm afraid to distrub him. ouhh world, I love him so much. I love him till I found what the true love as soon as I can.
 "AS I CAN"Lol. :D I don't know how if I lose him. and If I leave him. I can't.. but I don't know his feeling complatley to me. how God? How his feelings to me? is good,or nothing. give me the answear please.. hikss.. 
God, if I can together with him again, I'll take care. but, if it can't happend. I'll put it in my deep heart. and to continue to admire him. ;)

my new hair colour

this is my new pict.. me with my young brother. I've new hair colour :) like a coper is it.
I really like with my new hair colour. although I know, that no long anymore.. huh. but,I'm survive it.Lol.

tonight

I don't know why. I'm so borring and feel sadness come's to me tonight.
usually,I can smile and always laugh with everything what I did in saturday night.but,tonight I'm so borring. suddenly,I've got text from the person who I love.
he asking me "what are u doing there?" huh. Just smile than I reply. "I don't do anything here. just stay at home and watching TV" I don't want to lose him.. sure.
I don't want to leave him in oneday. I'm still love him till right now. but,maybe he not understand what I mean. but, that more great than yesterday. :)
I love u here.. hope to see u in my dream tonight.and no one can distrub my dream about u.
good night.

finally,I told to him

finallyyy......I told to him!!! I LOVE U :)