I'm so missing him tonight

humphhh...tonight, I'm so missing him. and I want to sent him text but I'm afraid to distrub him. ouhh world, I love him so much. I love him till I found what the true love as soon as I can.
 "AS I CAN"Lol. :D I don't know how if I lose him. and If I leave him. I can't.. but I don't know his feeling complatley to me. how God? How his feelings to me? is good,or nothing. give me the answear please.. hikss.. 
God, if I can together with him again, I'll take care. but, if it can't happend. I'll put it in my deep heart. and to continue to admire him. ;)